I've been doing some demo trading and it's doing quite well but as you all know, it's a big difference when you're trading your own real money instead of this fake dolla dolla.
Some people say that fear is a good thing when you're doing the stuff that you love the most but how is it a good thing? I'm currently battling on whether I should deposit or not, I keep tossing around between fuck it and don't fucking do it. What if I lose again? What if you get the profit? These questions keep repeating in my mind to the point that I have to scream at my own head to just fucking stop it. I mean, what do I have to do at this point? I simply can't let this go because forex trading has become a part of me, it's my passion, it's my career. I can't let this go, I can't do anything else except analyze, place my trade and get my profit.
I don't know if it's the universe or even God that gave me this kinda disabiliting fear, I really want to continue and profit as much as I can but this fear, this motherfucking FEAR keeps looming above me.