Remember when I told you that I am broke, well I am completely and utterly broke right about now. I know, I know that I should've look for an office job like everyone in my family been boggling me to do so but for some reason my sub-conscious was like, "Hell No!" I don't what it is about office job and myself, I really can't do it and plus my only skills that are worthy enough are writing and some trading skill but my trading skill always let me down, like for instance, yesterday, I blew out $800 out of my trading account and my capital was only $1000. Yes, I've been trying to get goo at forex trading but the end result was me blowing out all of my money doing so, I know I fucked up yesterday and not that I suck at trading, I was pretty good back in 2012, I managed to get a profit of $5000 out of just $2000 of capital.
I am really trying, guys. Yes, I let go the Isagenix because I really can't afford the packs anymore and I am focusing all of my work to this trading stuff, I attended this trading class about Supply and Demand technique but the advanced class that I wanted to get into is too pricey about $14,000.- and yes, it is in dollar which by now, you can tell that I am not in that class. I feel like crying right about now and I did last night, I bawled my eyes out when I saw my $1000 diminished into just $200 just with a snap of a finger.
Last night when I watched one of Roman's vlog, I thought to myself that I should start my vlog, like finally, because I've been thinking about doing a Youtube vog channel and/or a gaming channel to get some money out of it but one of his vlogs were this shot of him saying that it took Roman Atwood about two years to be where he is right now. TWO FREAKING YEARS! I don't think I have the time to invest another two or maybe double that amount to start making money on Youtube, I'm almost 30 for Christ's sake. I can't even afford to buy a Playstation 4 and some good vlogging camera.
I think right about now I would start to build my fundraiser or take some donation, huh? I am still battling with my pride to do this because my mom taught me not to take any money from any person without giving it back and I always hate borrowing money from others, even when I had to borrow money from my mom, I feel guilty that I can't pay her back just yet.
I don't know, guys. What do you think I should do? Should I build a fund me campaign and take some donation to build my Youtube channel? I do think that my future lies in forex trading but in order to do that I need to attend that class but fuck me that class is so expensive.
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Cheers! and Stay Positive!