I really don't know what to write right now, the only thing that I can think of is that I am relieved in some ways that she passed away now. In my mind, I keep telling myself that she can finally rest now, like I said in my previous entry, ever since my uncle passed away few years ago, she developed this kind of paranoia that kept her from sleeping most of the time and she was always fidgety all the time and that was not the life I wanted her to have. Last night, I looked at her face in the casket and her face was so calming, unlike these few years when her face wasn't even relaxed even when she was sleeping.
I just hope now that she's going to another dimension or other world, that she can find grandpa and my uncle and just rest easy knowing that she taught her kids and her grand kids and her great grand kids well and we took her teachings and put it into good use. Now, I've told you guys that I never met my grandpa because he was gone before I was even born and I always admire the guy, just a fun fact that, last night, when we were gathering around her, I whispered, "say hi to grandpa for me, grandma. You can be together again, now." She was 91 years old and I think my grandpa died when he was 50-something. That's a long time being apart from each other and I know they have much to talk and probably get their freak on and hey, they're due for an oil change, if you know what I mean. I mean no disrespect, but in time like this, a little joke would ease the pain a bit.
Well, I guess that's it for today's entry. Not much and I just talk about my grandma without discussing my work plan or anything. Just because.