I got so indecisive that I opted to leave my house today and just went silent, well not that silent though, I am telling you guys this. I need something to distract myself and more importantly something to help me not doubting myself. I know deep down I am brave, how could I not be? I am somewhat brave to step into forex trading and just lose almost all of my money, some would say that I am an idiot but I'm saying I'm a brave idiot, hey, at least, there's something redeemable about those two words.
I always have these traits of always worrying about stuff, of thinking things through to the point that I overthink a lot of stuff, traits that I positively got from my mother. In some ways, they're good things but in this situation, thinking too hard just makes you head hurt.
Right now, I really don't know what to think. My head is swirling, like literally swirling. It's really a toss between go ahead and don't do it. It's like there's a demon and an angel fighting inside of my head, you know one of those things where the one side says, "Do it!!!!" and the other one just say, "Don't do it, be a good boy".
I know when doing any kind of trading, whether it's regular forex trading or binary options, you have to be ready to lose money but losing money is something that I can't afford right now. I really need the money to just survive at this point and that's the one big reason of this toss up inside my brain. On one hand, if I deposit money, 6 times out 10, I will lose that money but if I don't do it, I will just do nothing at all.
I'm just going to leave it here. My binary options trading demo account just went from $21,500 to just $13,500. I don't know, man. My head is all cluttered up today.